my U.T.O.P.I.A----the F.ar.aw.ay dreamLanD

2006-05-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

yay jux now went to watch da vinci code wif gladys xueyuan huan qing and sin yee!!!wow sy such a miracle!!!haha she was so frightened when the guy tortured himself...watched the 8.35pm show then ended at abt 11pm...went to mac at bukit panjang plaza wif xueyuan and shared a fries and ate ice cream...hmm smth stunning happened thr...i saw John!!!so shocked!!!i stared hard at him and after that he oso stared back...that was like 11.40...bet he wondering what i was doing thr so late...he had grown shuai though...hmm...then he changed seat to the inner part and where i can't see him...dunno y...actually got funny sort of smth...fa hua ci again...tmr going shanghai...feeling sians...don feel lyk going sia...today yu ding bdae...haha...last thur jux went to watch poseidon wif xy gladys and huan qing...veri nice show...haha what's nx in line then???sin yee bdae coming!!!wahahahahaha=)

2006-05-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

haiz nth significant happened...miss my mom jux now..cox dad bought green bean soup jux now den while i ate a few scoops i rmb not wanting my mom to cook green bean soup as i don really lyk it...but now as i eat it i think of her n wish she was around...she was the one who always spur me on and my dad will oso do so...but without her talking to me for days seem so lonely...no motivation to work...now as i type, i think im tearing...this was the first time she went overseas without enabling overseas calls on her handphone...missed her voice...its lyk 2 weeks...jux received a call from her using her colleague's hp...but we tok only for 1 min or so...she gog flu...but i couldn't bring myself to ask if she's alright...stupid me...cant talk affectionately to anyone...i always wanted a cool side of me being presented in front of everyone which made me unable to express myself and thus keeping all the hurt in me...im worried sick for my mom cox korea is cold...even if she fell ill she wouldn't call...i gog this bad feeling...oh my gosh...she would always call back home at nite when she is overseas alone...but not this time in all my life...feel so down...i wonder wad my dad n bro are thinking since my bro lyk hack care and my dad didn't show anything too...i think im lyk dat in front of them too...but not deep inside...mom i miss ya...perhaps u nv know cox all these years i nv spoken a word of love as i thought it ridiculous and needless...although i knew dat it is important...cant bring myself to show or say it...she probably knew i would be bored so she deliberately left me her lap top to watch goong n my girl-korean drama...jux finish watching now...i dreamed of her nagging this morning and suddenly woke up but realised it was all a dream...i dreamed of her calling my name...i missed her voice...nobody spoke much in her absence in this household...its been 6 days...another 6 to go...will i survive my commontest?? sobs...........

2006-05-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

haha fri was speech day...gog a tiff with my pe teacher earlier dat day...she sux man
gosh pregnant lady r jux so foul tempered...n i always get the blow from pregnant teachers man...miss my mom...she coming back nx sun...she jux went korea for 4 days n i missed her lyk shit!!!awww...cant imagine her 2 weeks in shanghai from the nx mth n every mth onwards...
anyway speech day was FUN!!! the whole gang of us went for nite hunt!!!phew!!it was so cool...imagine seeing all the different sch uniforms formng one whole big gang of around 20 plus plus ppl...haha...it was a super thrashing state if anyone dares to provoke us!!POWER haha
havent had such a good time since i was separated from my clique...hmm...we gonna haf some chalet guys!!its a DEAL!!!wahahahahahaha...combining 4/8 n 4/9 is the best!!!hahahahahaha..=) we can book 3 chalets den!!hahahahhaor 4 5 6 ?? wahahahhahaha...really missed my teachers back at sec school...the way mrs philip n mdm prema n mr tan shout at me for doing the most absurd craziest things...n in the end being chased out by mrs philip...wahahaha..enjoying the different sceneries from sec 3 to 4..haha..mdm prema reprimanding sessions for my horrendous corrections ...hahahaha n always nv studying n famous for doing last moment work!!haha..those were the days...back then...those bittersweet memories...im going to frequent my sch man...cant stay away from my sec sch..such great affinity to it...man...now researching my project work for GPP...haiz...olivia n angela staying overnite my hse..at different rooms using different coms..our conversation at mac

olivia: i think the man behind u is watching the show as well..obscenities
me: oh is it..nvm lor...its my show anyway...

after a few moments...

olivia: the pervert man is here!!!again!!!
angela: (getting freak out too) i think let's go

i said nothing...as i not here the other time...or it could be i not paying attention...dreaming again in my fantasy land...wahahahaha

angela: eh yao bu yao zou le??
olivia and me: zou lor

and we shut off coms...cute and funny rite??hahahahaha

n when i saw the man..hmm..he really looks lyk some pervert staring at ppl...but nobody noes for sure...maybe he's not...aiya...so many ppl afraid for wad...hahahahaha...anyway.beta safe than sorry...dat's wad they say!!! hahaha

"Believe as those who believe will be saved...or so they say..."i gog this from a webbie of chrno crusade=)

2006-04-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

went to mac to do hmwk wif angela, olivia n a new girl called hui shi..n 3 primary sch frens ty, mikhail n samuel...den when i reach mikhail suddenly asked if i hate him..he caught me by surprise...dunno y he suddenly ask this question...hmm..i don hate him la...never hated anyone cox it can be so tiring...but if he ever read my blog...im sry for e words i used earlier in the entries...cox dat time maybe im jux too overly sensitive and my mood maybe very bad...dat's y i may be a little angry...but by looking at his looks jux now...he look lyk he is going to die if i sae smth wrong...omg...all those things he said earlier i oso don care alre...and now he became conscious of wad he do n sae..overly...said sry for e look he gave me b4 he go cox lots of ppl looking...n i took it as a joke when i sae him but he lyk sensitive..haiz...an exchange of roles??haha..don worry la...i wont hate or dislike him(u)..haiz...i oso dunno wad made him ask this question...someone can tell me if he or she noes=) anyways nothing really happen today except dat i slipped and fell off the last step of stairs n fly and almost bang into the dustbin!!luckily i managed to stop in time..joycelyn did not see it as she was in front of me...but she said she felt something flew behind her!!DAts ME!!!wahahahahaha...oh man..it was so embarrassing...alot of ppl saw i guess...hid behind her after dat...den i remembered the times when i played with sin yee li sin n girls in lot 1 and i slipped n fell in the middle of level 4 with my shoes away from my feet...i couldnt stand up as i cant stop laughing n my legs are so weak then...and my frens jux laugh n laugh non stop...oh man...those days i was so childish...n we often play wif water...haha...those were the days i had so much fun...sec 1 to 4...miss them like anything...miss them too...haiz...anyway will be seeing them tmr...gotta enjoy one of the rare moments wif them...and our teachers!!CHEERS!!!

2006-04-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

hmm...today was another monotonous day in sch...2 hrs of physics in e morning, followed by 2 hrs of chemistry on chemical bonding tutorial instead of practicals n 2 hours of GP!!! plus PE after dat!!!dey are literally trying to kill us...running 25 rounds in the hall plus conditionings!!although no 10 rounds around the tracks...haiz...den stayed back for pw discussion till 8 as the teacher went for some competition to cheer students until 7.30...i fell asleep while waiting...tmr maybe gog thermal physics test!!!haiz...n tmr nite gotta send my mom to the airport as she leaving for korea for 9 days...abit bu she de...but she going thr for leisure...let her relax while she is at it...n i mux get used to it as she will be frequently travelling for every month for work to shanghai...well don worry...me n my bro n my dad will try to take things into our hands while my mom is overseas=/ hmm..beta go study now n do tutorials on forces or i will haf this premonition dat i may suffer hell tmr for the 2 hrs of tutorial instead of practicals...y r the teachers so fond of replacing lessons?? making us go bonkers as its pretty boring n monotonous...moreover i will be drifting to dreamland after listening to a few stuff the teacher sae...dats y i always get into trouble n mess...i haf a habit of daydreaming!!!its BAD!!!as it makes me unable to address question the teacher pose to me as im shutting off for a few moments or thinking about smth else lyk the question b4!!!oh man...y m i crapping?? i whld get on wif work!!! see ya!!nite

2006-04-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

so long didnt blog...today was ajc family day!!quite fun as i enjoy doing handicrafts..feel lyk bashing up mikhail e most rite now!!!since thur nite...shld haf bash him to his grave den!!!!arghhhh....so sarcastic...think i dunno...i jux tolerate den...make him sound childish for being so sarcastic..such foul mouth..loathesome haiz..baddie!!!!!
got so many piano scores from my fren jacinda...wahahahaha...we exchange scores!!! yamaha fair going on today n tmr but i cant go cox go oso no use...make me feel more lyk buying U5 upright piano...its jux so cool but e most expensive pianos of upright models for yamaha..perhaps one day when i save enough money i buy for myself just for sheer enjoyments...music esp pianos are the best!!!bought a tiny harmonica today n drank a misture of sprite rebina n fruit cocktails=) delicious...my class frens rox 04/06!!! n my previous class 4/9 as well as all my frens!!! CHEERS=) YUMMM SENGGG!!!!4/9 gathering on fri YAhoo YAy!!!lOoking forward to teasing my frens n be together again!!let's go catch a movie e next time round k??let's bully each other!!!FUN FUN and more FUN!!!!

2006-04-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

today is raining...makes me think of my anime gensomaiden saiyuki...e sanzo thr dislike rain alot...haha...its a meaningful show=) haiz tmr gog co...saddening...yay next thursday i can see my silly frens again!!!so happy=) miss dem like crazy everyday...so much memories i noe but i jux cant recall all...today my house gog prayer...frens cant make it...sad...nvm...anyway i quite like my blog song---from final fantasy 7 or is it 9??nvm its called melodies of life!!wahahahaha...going back to cckss on nx thur to collect our certificates..haha...wad should i make for my teachers???or should i buy??no like dat like no meaning...should do something like handicrafts????oso for me frens!!wahahahahha...making for sin yee, ai zhen, gladys, huan qing, yolk whye...n so on...at least 20 or more...hmm..(",)haha...now feel so moody...haiz sian everyday...mux go find some fun...

2006-04-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

today almost late for school...jux wanting to ask my seniors some questions on projectile motion...jux when im getting a hang on it...i see myself going to fail another test on kinematics...damn...cox i dunno how to set my gc to degree mode instead of radian...knew smth was fishy but ignore and this is wad i get...haha today msg li sin not going her concert..hey its really nobody pei me or i wld go...nvm u come mine will be a reunion for us=) miss ya all...going to shanghai in 1 and a half months more...wif my sch ppl...excited state....cox going thr to shop!!!its a shopping spree!!!wahahaha..im getting more n more warming with my class...they r fun man!!!so funny=) shinde kunasai is rite now our fav hot term...haha...gog my locker working properly today=) tmr wld be parents session in my sch...gotta catch up wif work man...jux now went olivia hse...baby thr and she so into dat baby...hmmm...she really adores baby...but i find them hard to look after though...sian tmr still gog econs...funny teachers+funny students=square of funny school...craps...gonna slp...nite...the "god" in my class today responded to a guy who called him shuai ge...so funny...haha...lecture theatre is cold...grrr...nitez everyone

2006-04-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

cRap!!! having physics kinematics test tmr!! didnt do tutorials...haiz...gonna fail again...my chinese compo is still left aside...now hot for comics and no mood to study...complaining on my first day of blogging...my fren today so funny sia...keep complain abt a guy in my class...he lyk against her...both side against each other den lyk pick on her...she so pissed...den during lunch sae her feng shui no good cox directly opp is him...den she also say if she cant tahan, she will scold him shinde kunesai...haha meaning pls die...so funny when i see her reaction...im reading all yuu watese comics and exchanging wif my frens...we r all comic freaks n fuzzies...haha...however as im writing down...i wish during my sec sch i had wrote down all my events dat r so enjoyable...it seems lyk my memories are disappearing...den i feel so demented...only rmb being mrs philip "out-standing" pupil in class--always ganna chase out of class n watch sceneries cox i keep failing tests...mdm prema who go thru my corrections wif class for 1 hr and scold me...mr tan who insulted me after prelims...but all these led me to who i m now...teachers...im so grateful to all of u for waking the other me...i do not know how to express or start thanking...but hope u feel my piece of gratitude=) thank u lots n loads my dearest teachers...one day when u see this...pls remember those times...n to my sec sch frens...all e water games, falling down in lot 1 n all the laughter and sorrow, ups n downs we shared, i will always remember...dat i was once part of all of u..even till now...this is esp created for my family, teachers n frens...=) cheers!!keep in touch...